This latest stage of life has been about trusting God and trusting His creation (me).
You see, I have this huge complicated dream in my heart. I want to work with athletes (preferably football) as a trainer/nutritionist/physical therapist. Ultimately I want to be a certified exercise physiologist which is a fancy name for all those titles I just named. Recently after spending a total of 4 years off I was able to return to school and I have been struggling with my official major. When God showed me my career path I was so excited. Health and fitness is something I am pretty much in love with but I still wasn’t sure what to major in. I am currently halfway through my first semester at my very first dream school LSU and they have an amazing athletic training program (the best in the country) and as a pre-professional student I am getting to see exactly what the job of an athletic trainer entails for many different sports. And while it is all really cool…it’s not enough. I want to do more than make sure the athletes are hydrated and stretched out and give treatment when needed. I want to work with them beyond injury. I want to make sure they don’t get injured in the first place or again. I want to make sure they are in the best shape for their sport. I want them to be at their best for every game.
Then yesterday I had the wierdest dream. I dreamt that I was new to a town and when someone asked me what I did I said I was the new track coach. Naturally I started answering myself back in my dream like “Stasia you are a trainer aren’t you??” I said I majored in Kinesiolgy and French (what I want to do actually) so when I woke up I started praying about it. I was like “God I asked you for clarity but you just confused me more with this dream what the heck” lol. I actually wrote:
I mean maybe it’s fear that’s keeping me from remaining an athletic training major and I should stay one. But I seemed happy and apparently I double majored in French. Idk but I feel like that dream was helping me to make a decision but I’m overthiniking it. Help me Abba, give me clarity. I am so confused and anxious and Idk which way to turn.
Then the coolest thing happened. I had been struggling with the decision to change my major for two major reasons: 1) I want to go to France (study abroad) and 2) I always said if I went to LSU I’d try to run track. I missed the walk-ons for this season and then I found out that athletes aren’t allowed to do athletic training as their major😩😩 I was like “I’ll give up running track but if I can’t go to France all bets are off I will change my major.”
You see I forgot that when I was 18 years old at Oral Roberts University I asked God if I could run there and He told me no. I asked again here but when I missed the deadline and found out about the major restrictions I assumed -BTW don’t ever try to guess God’s answers because you’ll be wrong every time- that the answer was once again no.
Except it wasn’t.
God told me yes.
The question I had forgotten all about and assumed His answer was no when really He was saying “not now” was finally answered. It felt like no to me at the time because I’m impatient. But I am slowly seeing that 18 year old me was not even sure of who I was as I was still dead set on Pre Med because it was something I had always wanted to do. (Really I have just always been fascinated by the human heart and how it works) I would have figured that out eventually but I would have wasted a lot of money in the process. I had to meet myself and get to know her. And while I’m still in the process of doing so I am a lot more sure of things. Also God needed me to get more familiar with His voice so I’d understand quicker what he says. I am still learning but now I can better distinguish between yes, no and later. He tells me to trust Him a lot. And while it’s hard I am learning to be more patient and just enjoy the journey. I get a lot more done when I allow God to be God. He gave me my path and I just need to trust that I know my Abba well enough and that I can tell His voice from the world’s voice.
And I’m getting better.
Thanks Abba for the lessons😚😚
PS I love you 💜💛💜💛
