Summer has come and gone and I feel like life is just beginning again. In other words football season is here again!! (insert salsa dancing emojis) At the start of this summer I was hopeful I was adamant and I was terrified. I had a good spring semester but I wasn’t quite yet off of probation. And my summer classes were Math and Bio- which I swapped for Speech. It was gonna be a long summer. Or so I thought. It was hard – so hard but I did it with the help of my teacher and my awesome engineer cousin Latoya going back into the archives of her math filled mind to help me do well. I made it through summer school with a 3.0 pulling out a solid C in Math. Now in any other class a C would have felt like a failure but I worked hard for it and I am dang proud of it. When my final grades came in and I saw that REMOVED FROM SCHOLASTIC PROBATION on the bottom I screamed and danced and thanked God because I couldn’t have done it without him. Only one more class and I will be in my senior college and well on my way to the first of my degrees.
This summer has been very eventful from more shootings to a weekend long flood of the city, it has been one for the ages. God is doing something huge in this city and in my life and I cannot wait to see it come to fruition. I started a new journal this summer, number 35 I believe, and at the beginning of every book just about I put my name, age, college and major. I also put my favorite quote, my life quote, my current status and a bunch of other stuff. On current status I usually put something like living life, loving God, and loving me. happily single. totally smitten. Hidden. or whatever else I can come up with but lately that hasn’t been what I have been feeling.
Romans 8:18 says “I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing to the glory that will be revealed in us. The creation waits in eager expectation for the sons of God to be revealed.”
And honestly that how I have been feeling I am in eager expectation. I know that God has something big for me I don’t know what or when or where it is, but its coming and I am in eager expectation. Maybe I’ll finally meet a guy that I like enough to date. Maybe by next Fall, since I missed the deadline this Fall, I will finally walk on to the track 
team. Maybe I’ll fall in love. Maybe I’ll make that 4.0 that I want so badly. Or maybe I will just walk a but further into my calling. I don’t know what the future holds. I know what I hope for (all of the above+ extra lol) but I don’t know what is to come. All I know is I am super excited for whatever may come my way be it sunshine or pouring rain, I won’t be shaken.(fyi that is inspired by an amazing song by building 429 I posted a pic with the chorus)
Abba thank you for the hole you fill and the hope you give. In Jesus name. Amen
Ps I love you
