2016 has been quite the year up until this point. There have been highs and there have been lows. But more than that there have been lessons taught and lessons learned. God has been moving and if I have to admit it that fact both excites me and scares me at the same time.
Currently life is hard. Really hard. School is fine. I just had to get through finals and then “hello Christmas break”👋🤸🎄. But life outside of school-it has been quite the last few months. God is making me stronger. He’s working on my whole family actually and while it sucks tremendously it is a sight to behold. This quote I read by Rick Warren pretty much sums up life at this point. It really put this test into perspective for me.
“God is more interested in what you’re becoming than what’s happening to you. He often allows trials, troubles, tribulations, and problems in your life to teach you diligence, determination, and character. The problem you’re going through right now? It’s a test of your faithfulness. Will you continue to serve God even when life stinks?”
The tests have been pretty hard but I am sure that I still have room to grow.
God is teaching me to fight in prayer and it is not easy to do. I feel weak and I feel like I’m not doing much to help our current situation but sometimes I feel like I’m doing exactly what I’m supposed to be doing. I’m learning what it means to stand. I feel like my whole family is learning what this means in some way shape or form. The biggest test is in fact “will we still serve God even when life stinks”. Well in my case yes, I mean God has been so good to me and even though all I want to do is sleep my entire break I want to also be sure that I am not being too self-absorbed. The sun doesn’t rise and set on me so I have to be less selfish and more selfless sometimes especially when life is hard. I wont say I am an expert at this but I will say I am learning. Always learning.
A prayer that I have been praying a lot lately is “Lord give me strength.” And well I think that is what he is doing. See Webster defines the word as the ability to be strong.
So you mean I have to be strong in order to have strength?
No, not in the sense that you are thinking. To be strong is to simply do what God asks you to do. Not questioning whether or not you heard right. To simply do it. Even if the thought of it scares you.
Quite frankly I don’t really like living life afraid of the power that God has given me. Is giving me. And so I want to step into my power but I need God to help me do so. I need your prayers as well. I asked God to make me brave. And bravery is doing something even when you’re afraid. So here goes everything. Abba be with me…
