Growing Pains

So a few weeks ago I heard a song called Growing Pains by Alessia Cara. It’s a pretty good song and partly the inspiration for this post.

Lately my obsession has been Pinterest… seriously, it is ridiculous how much time and how much battery is spent on that one little app. But I was reading some quotes and none of them seemed to sum up what I was feeling at the moment. And yes, I have been reading my bible too. But you know how you can read and meditate and pray but there’s just this block in the way? I have to fight around it but in that moment I was just wasting life. Well, Abba has a knack for showing up during those times more often than not.

So, I started to write this quote that I kind of liked but it turned into a message.

God is up to something. There is a reason why you are in this season. Trust the process. He’s got you.

After I wrote it I was like that’s not exactly what the quote said but it was the perfect tweak and it was exactly what I needed to hear in that moment.

To be perfectly honest not long before I wrote it I was just thinking about how much of a mess I am lately. I am more focused than I have ever been but, I am also more confused and out of sorts that I have ever been at the same time. I am so out of my element in every part of my life. I am getting closer to graduation. As in so close that I begin my checkout process in a few months and begin my last year of school in a few weeks. I can’t avoid adulting anymore I have to actually embrace it. It’s unnerving.

But as I sat and wrote and poured my heart out to God, I realized that He is kind of the best part of this entire process. I do wonder why He likes to test me so much all at the same time though. “Like really Abba? As if I don’t already have ALL of this going on. Is it really a good time for this too? I’m genuinely curious.” And despite the fact that I trust Him, that doesn’t stop my tendency to over think and worry even though I know I don’t need to. So that’s what I started to do…over think and worry and right in the middle of my obsessing He stopped me…

Anastasia, 

Can you add one second to your life worrying about tomorrow?

No.

So don’t.

Let me deal with tomorrow, I’m already there.

 I chose this time because you rely on me most when you’re overwhelmed. Trust in me darling girl. I made you so strong. Every part of your journey, I have handpicked just for you. To make you the most perfect form of you. Why? Because I love you. You gave me the pen. This is me using it. I’m writing your story and it’s glorious. I love you so much. 

❤Abba 

It’s safe to say after that I shut up about it.

I did ask God to write my story and I know that if I am dealing with a lot it is because he is teaching me something. Time to learn some more lessons. Here goes everything.

 

Playlist

1. Growing Pains by Alessia Cara