So I have been watching Pastor Michael Todd’s sermon series Relationship Goals Reloaded, and I was a few weeks behind so I just watched week 5 Happily ever Before and it was awesome.
He talked about how before God sends you the person He wants to first give you 6 things: His Presence, a Place, His Provision, a Personality like His, Purpose, and Parameters.
God wants us to be a whole person before we merge our lives with anyone else’s. There is a rhythm to everything God does and when we do things out of order we break the rhythm.
I know I still have a lot of work to do and God isn’t done with me yet. But it was confirmation of everything God has been doing in me then last few years. I have journal entries that talk about every single point he made.
It’s quite an interesting feeling. I mean, I know that I have grown a lot over the past few years but I don’t always see that. A lot of times I don’t feel like I’ve grown at all. But when I hear the points he makes each week, I can remember that point in my life.
In weeks 2 and 3 he talked about ripping up your lists. I remember doing this with tears in my eyes because I was so afraid to let it become more important to me than my Abba. I remember telling God, I’m afraid but I trust you. I constantly have to do this because I refuse to let my wants overpower what God has for me.
Granted, I still have some lists to rip up but it was so cool to see evidence of my growth in at least one area of my life. I can’t wait to see what God does in every area when I let Him in.
So I guess thats what this post is about…
What in your life are you trying to control because you don’t trust God to give you the best?
For me if I’m honest, in this season it is probably more personal than professional. It’s like I know what God has told me and I trust His words but I keep trying to conform them to my own interpretation of them. It’s a constant battle of letting go and more often than not I lose. I don’t like to lose.
It is forcing me to surrender to God in a way that I haven’t ever before. It’s like the worst and best thing ever. Like a really hard workout that you know is good for you. It’s way outside of my comfort zone. So far out that I’m not sure I even know how to get back.
Maybe thats a good thing. So let’s do it. I never expected that the journey to becoming fearless would be easy.
Round 4.
