Learning to Pivot

“When it is sent by God, it will come with confirmation. But when it isn’t sent by God it will come with hesitation, frustration, and confusion.”

I read this quote on Pinterest, and I have to admit there was a time where I agreed with this sentiment. But after living for a few years, I have to respectfully disagree. I know for me, more often than not, following God’s plan sometimes comes with hesitation. I’m usually confused because He knows infinitely more than I do about my path and all HE has for me. This can sometimes cause frustration, especially if you are a control freak like me. I do not like knowing.

If I had to sum up 2022 and the first part of 2023 in three words, I could say learning to pivot.

All of last year, and a lot of 2021 as well has been eye opening in more ways than one but the one that was the most surprising was that what I thought was my dream career path is not at all what I want to do. In April of 2021 I got what I thought would potentially be the job that launched my career as a strength and conditioning coach. Except what I realized very quickly was I do not like coaching.

Like at all. It was not easy.

On top of that the adjustment to this new coaching style was tough.

I felt like I had to work hard to be a base level, ok coach. That was mind boggling to me. I have not ever had to truly work hard at anything. Outside of math and tough classes in school, I was not used to things not coming easily or at least fairly easy after putting in some effort. I also realized that I was used to having a creative outlet of some sort at all times. For the first time in a long time, I didn’t.

This realization, to be honest, hit me like a fist in the gut.

What the heck God?

Did we not sit in the gym and talk about how this was my happy place, and I could see myself there owning a facility? Why does it feel like something is missing?

Did you not tell me to study Kinesiology?

If you knew I would not like it why let me keep studying this and not change my major?

Ok I know why…You didn’t want me to get stuck deciding again and I can always pivot right?

Pivot is defined as changing direction.

SO that is what I started doing. Changing direction.

The first thing I did was question why all of a sudden, I had writers block. Why couldn’t I crochet, color, or create anything? It was strange. Was I that off balance? Also, if coaching was not my thing, then what was?

In January, I did a reading plan about career transitions through the book of Nehemiah. Looking back on what I studied through that lesson, I can see so much of it playing out in this new season of my life. Taking the road less traveled has been a big part of my life and I look forward to finally sharing a little bit of this journey with you all.

Cheers to a new chapter of finding Stasia