So in these last few weeks I have gotten way off track with being consistent in every area of my life. From working out consistently to reading one book at a time. December was great as far as my moods and emotions, and Christmas was nice and quiet. I stayed pretty consistent with my writing and exercising. Then January hit and it was like all my discipline went away. I didn’t work out all month, outside of walking my dog and even then it was sparingly. For most of February it has been much of the same until I finally decided that I would not allow procrastination and perfectionism get the best of me. I have worked really hard to stay consistent and I refuse to let myself lose all that progress.
So, yesterday morning, I got up and forced myself to not just lay down all day and read. Although reading does make me happy, I promised myself that I would be more active in pursuing my dreams every day. So I spent some time with Abba and then I worked out. It felt great. Today I did it again.
It made me think of what it means to be truly disciplined. To work every day toward something.
I accept that while I feel like I could have done more, physically I needed that time off. Being disciplined is recognizing when to slow down and when to stop for a minute and rest. I have learned that discipline doesn’t always feel good, and the most disciplined person always feels like they are failing in some area of their life.
So while on the outside I may seem really disciplined, inside I’m a mess sometimes. And that’s ok. Because God isn’t done with me. I have become more disciplined in so many ways but, I always have more to improve on. This, I believe, is a sign of growth. If you aren’t constantly learning more about yourself you may not be growing in the way you could be. Complacency is no fun. The longer you are complacent the harder it will be to get started again. No one likes to be stuck, so let’s get moving again together.
I won’t reach perfection until I get to heaven, but in the meantime I will keep striving to make my Abba proud of me.
What are some areas where you struggle with staying disciplined?
Song list
- In spite of me by Tasha Cobbs Leonard feat. Ciara
- Everything by Jonathan Mcreynolds
